Jamie, as ever asks the simplest questions producing the most reverberating silences. I sit here, jaw slack, brain on click-click-whir, knowing exactly what I wish for less of because I've been doing nothing but speaking of it for the last year. There has been even more discussion of this since my birthday, but now my list involves more than just 'stuff' I wish to be rid of.
I've been on the "less is more" mind set for years, without ever reigning in what it is that gets me 'more'. That has been a recent flipping of the brain switch. The switch-flip happened when I started keeping a food diary in June. It was easy to begin to notice the patterns of 'usage', 'intake', 'consumption' in every aspect of my life, not just food. I began to notice monetary spending habits, time-spending habits, everything I did was under scrutiny. How much of my life is spent in the meaningless, frivolous expenditure of money, time, space? For no other reason than to preoccupy myself, to distract from what is really going on.
For years I have wished for a spartan home. The home where everything in it is absolutely necessary, even if the art is only necessary for our souls' well being. I wish for the lack of stuff that would allow my mind to live unfettered of chaos and clutter. I wish for the spending of less money, time, thought, actions, words, emotions on all of those things that would only detract from living the beautiful authentic life that I know is mine to lead, if only I could grasp it through the landfill of paperwork, memories and un-finished documentation obligations from a life already-gone.
I wish for less judgement of myself for having not gotten to all of these things sooner, for the berating I gave myself over a depression that crept in and nearly strangled me with its black, oily tentacles. I wish for less excuses to myself over why...
I wish for less obstruction between myself and the beauty that lies ahead - I can see it through the thorns, and vines... I can see it, and I wish for less distance between IT and myself.
11 comments:
beautiful, deep, powerful wishes. as you wish for yourself, i wish for you also.
Mmmmmmmmm. As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you also.
Such deep, powerful honesty in this post that all I can say is: as Shamsi wishes for herself, so I lovingly wish for her also.
Beautifully put.
As Shamsi wishes for herself, so I wish for her as well.
Wishing that your path be free from obstacles.
Peace and goodness
As Shamsi wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
He sweetie!!! As Shamsi wishes for herself, I wish for her also!!
What beautiful wishes..deep and powerful hon! I wish these for you! Simple and clean. I have been working on this too..how to pare down and simplify. I feel like I am dragging around too much stuff of late!! Hugs and love to you, Sarah
This is beautiful.
As Shamsi wishes for herself, so I wish for her as well.
Scrumptious wishes...very powerful. As Shamsi wishes for herself so I wish for her as well...and so it is!
What a beautiful post! While I don't wish to live in a spartan home, I do wish for less stuff, too. I could see myself in so much of what you wrote. Thanks for verbalizing thoughts I didn't even know I had!
As Shamsi wishes for herself, so do I wish for her also!
Less stuff would be so nice.
As Shamsi wishes for herself, so do I wish for her as well.
Morning hon...a little later this morning..would you pop by my blog hon.. I will have a treat there for you...hugs and love, Sarah
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